How long should we strive? Who is going to help us here at this critical stage, apart from God? It is too much.
Iraqi security forces all over the country and specifically in Baghdad have done their best to crack down on violence. However, what they are doing is like a tug of war. They tighten their grip some of the time against the militias and Qaeda, but let it go or unleash it most of the time. It is not because they deliberately want this to happen, but they are still new, and they want to protect their own lives.
They are fighting ghosts who set up I.E.D.s and appear from nowhere without warning, and then disappear. The battle is much harder than Mr. Bush expected. His own army, the strongest in the world, could not cope with the situation. The Iraqi government doesn’t tell the real numbers of the dead.
In Baghdad, no one knows when he will die. It is like a line we are standing in. One day a friend dies, another day a relative, and so on.
I have started to ask myself, is this country cursed? I should go back, sink into the history, and look for answers. Some Shiites say it could be so, because it was the people of this country who killed and mutilated Imam Hussein, grandson of Prophet Muhammad. Some Sunnis would say it could be the curse of the monarchy during the 1950s that the people were not satisfied with, and were happy when it was toppled.
God, are we all bad people here? If so, why do you not use your superior power to terminate this country. Or if not, why don’t you help people to stay alive, next to their beloved.
At some moments, a thought comes to my mind, and I become at this moment a disbeliever, when I believe that God does not care for Iraqis anymore. What is true are Oliver Goldsmith’s famous words, that “one half of the world are ignorant how the other half lives.”
Whatever the reasons behind this killing were, this country kills people’s hopes.
